I’ve been having this recurring dream for a while and I wonder why.

I’m always either at one of three places.

The Australian Defence Force Academy (which is a place I used to work at); Monash University Biochemistry Labs or a hotel that I’m staying at and I need to check out to catch a flight.

When I’m in my room, there’s no issue being inside it except when I need to use the toilet or shower and have to make my way down the corridor to the communal ones if I’m at the Academy or if I’m coming back to the labs from the Student Union if I’m at the University.

Or if I’m at some hotel, something happens (such as returning from a day trip) and then unable to find my way back to the room!

Invariably, I get lost going back to my room because I can’t remember where it is so I’m running around corridors, up and down stair wells, asking people, in and out buildings but all doors, buildings and rooms look exactly the same.

I wonder if these recurring dreams mean anything as I have a handful that I dream at various times in my life. They’re all along the same lines and movie-like and full technicolor in the quality.

Sometimes I think I should write them down because they seem to be like movies. Crazy characters, great dialogue, fantastical places, wonderful costumes, vivid, rich details.

(I actually quite like my dreams in all honesty because it’s like entering another world. Travelling while you’re sleeping).

I usually consider the emotion of these dreams – not the content or themes. If I wake up feeling refreshed, it’s ok. Distressed, something’s obviously up. With such dream I wake up with a slight odd frustration which I can only equate to thinking that I have many choices in my life, and once I start one thing, going back and trying to find my previous life/goal/tasks/projects/interests /whatever, they’re gone – because I’ve changed as a person in the process.

In my dreams, I should not fear the corridor of sameness. Nor worry about my stuff sitting in a room I can’t get to.

I should just open any door, see what’s behind it and just walk in without fear.