There are many times in recent years that I’ve wanted to simply escape from the world. To live in my own bubble and not have to deal with what’s “out there”.

To hide away, go anywhere where there aren’t people to see, choices to be made or any demands put on me. Where I’m the only one responsible for my own choices.

Many times, I look at my front gate and think, I can so easily close it and not have to deal with anything that is “out there” anymore. Anyone who wants to take my time, take my money or my sanity. In some way, getting off social media was a way to put an arm’s distance away from it all too.

I’m tired of people not doing what they say they’ll do; hurting others with their egotistical actions; or outright scamming them.

What makes me get this way?

• Stupid rules that don’t make sense (Eg. In a line at the bank where the teller is saying that she won’t do what you’re asking her to do because you can go home and do it online or through an app. The inconvenience of modern customer service – doesn’t she realise what she’s asking us to do is doing herself out of her own job?)
• Corruption and self interest (all covered up with constant lies or assumed forgetfulness such as recent example of our ex-PM who was on his way of creating a dictatorship in Australia taking over 5 Ministries without anyone’s – but the Governor General’s knowledge during COVID)
• Bullshit everywhere (people who don’t give you straight answers and instead rather than speak to you to clarify and work out situations delay through texts and excuses)
• Toxic people destroying lives and livelihoods (people who are so insecure in themselves who gaslight, steal your ideas and your sanity by sucking the life out of you).
• Scammers calling me at home (every afternoon expect a call from a call centre in India telling me that my computer has a virus, that they’ll arrest me for some minor misdemeanour if I don’t pay a bill, selling me solar roof panels or offering to change my lights or tap fixtures).
• Scammers sending me text messages (a daily occurrence)
• Big platform capitalists getting into areas that then have access to our data or make others use their services. (Eg. I NEVER use Uber and refuse to but now they’re getting into the health area and touting it as a community service).

I think we have lost our way in modern day life. I’m tired of trying to keep up with it all. The bullshit detectors have long since given up. They’ve broken down due to being drowned out by the shit doled up to us by everyone and everything in our lives.

(This post was written at 3:07 am, I’m tired and cranky. It also doesn’t help that I’m reading Dave Eggers new novel The Every which is about a future where people hand their lives over to a behemoth company)….