It’s hard to believe that we have reached June already. Where does the time fly?

It’s been a really weird year for me so far. Where 2020 was all about fear and anxiety of the unknown thanks to the pandemic, 2021 was tedium most of which was in lockdown unable to see anyone or my family and a feeling of constant sadness and grief in some way and now 2022 which to date has been one of overall, inevitability, shoulder shrugging and dare I say it, apathy.

We have been seeing the worst of humanity on our tv screens and in our social media that has made us not feel anymore. As if, nothing surprises us anymore.

Thankfully I’ve had some glimmers of hope through the year so far.

• Time spent with family, quiet times together with hubby in comfortable silence as we read or watch tv together
• Our weekend trip to Castlemaine
• My nephews 7th birthday at the awesome Air Museum
• Our election results to a new Labor government (I feel as if I can breathe again)
• Catching up and walking with my friends Marilyn, Fiona and Megan
• Reconnecting with long time friend Caroline, whom I haven’t seen in ten years through golf and it was as if we caught up where we left from (now will be a fellow Woodlands Golf Member)
• Spending time with my nephew where he showed me how to use a drone
• Short work trip up to Brisbane where I could just wander the streets and explore my historical interests of the city (I visited a place that was on my bucket list!)
• Meeting new people through a Womens Golf Network
• My knitting skills went up a notch with creations of some beautiful jumpers and cardigans with colour work.
• My weekly chats with my French friends at a local cafe who keep me active speaking French
• My weekly French Zoom or WhatsApp chats with Emma, Renee, Patricia and Joelle
• I learned to use an e-scooter without killing myself in Brisbane
• Visiting libraries
• As well as writing in this blog which I’ve enjoyed.

Glimmers of hope jolt you back to life again. Sit up and take note and to feel again.

I’m unsure if the way I’ve been feeling this year is a mixture of my age, my life, or questioning the value of my work or the state of the world. I’ve been trying to find a solution to it – even looking through job ads for new work – but methinks the best thing to do is to just live each day and not worry about it.

To not force a new situation onto myself if I’m not entirely sure of what exactly I want.

So I wait and do what I do, what I must and what I can – and in the meantime just enjoy those glimmers as they come.