I signed up to receive Meredith Lewis (@dangerousmere) advent calendar email which sends out daily prompts for December to inspire some creativity. Given that I enjoy everything that Meredith creates, I thought when I can, I’ll do the activities and see how I go.

Today’s prompt is about using my imagination to have my own Christmas Carol. That is, to use my imagination and consider who would I be, Scrooge or the Ghost of Christmas Past, Present or Future?

I read her email this morning and it’s been floating around in my head all morning but I’m having a hard time trying to decide what I’d rather be?

In the story, these ghosts came to him to show him the threat of time, the importance of generosity and how greed impacts relationships around you. I had to think about what lesson did I need – at this point in my life – that would make me change direction or behaviour.

Would I have changed if any of these ghosts visited me?

I came to the conclusion that at this point in my life I am somewhat of a Scrooge character but without the greed, meanness and lack of empathy towards others.

Certainly I don’t connect with his insistence for wealth either.

In some ways, where I feel that we are the same is in the solitude; of not being bothered by the whims of people and doing things on your own because it’s a lot easier than trying to appease others.

In some ways, I feel let down by a lot of people in my life and it’s the reason why I am like I am today.

Maybe if I had a ghost visit me growing up, it would have also shown me that it’s okay to feel like you don’t fit anywhere and that it’s okay to just want a peaceful, non-eventful, small life.