In an effort to change my mindset and not to be too wrapped up in my thoughts anymore, I deleted social media off my phone…again – for a bit of respite. 

This time when I use social media, it’ll be the times I happen to be sitting at my desktop – so expect less tweets.

The intention is to get back some time mainly to feel a bit more “in the moment” with things so I can feel inspired once again. 

I’m thinking I will start meditation to channel the thoughts away from myself and more of an outward focus to others.  Walking and having days to myself will continue as they are crucial for my health.

I’m also tired of mindless scrolling on the phone and the need for some external validation of these social tools.  Twitter, for a while, hasn’t really been enjoyable for me but I’m partly to blame here because I’m not adding any value when I rant and rave about things that I can’t control. The algorithm tends to bring back more negative tweets that feed my irritation.  Pointless cycle really. 

Despite losing my way a bit this year possibly because of the intense negative news around the world that we’re constantly bombarded with; also seeing how it impacts my friends and family (they’re feeling a bit like this too), I need to get a grip and not let it affect me. 

I’ll draw some strength from the people I’ve connected with over Zoom and Teams calls plus the fact that I devoted time to learn a new language this year and even overcome a fear of running. 

I’d like to start 2021 with a completely new mindset and to feel like my old self again. I want to come out of 2020 like some kind of phoenix out of the fire. 

2020 feels as if we’ve all been put through the ringer and to some, it’s made them stronger (good on them!) but to others, it’s just brought out our nasty part of our personalities.  (I’ve been the latter where I have been sharing snarky tweets about our Australian government, Trump and the Greece-Turkey situation…)

The world doesn’t need my bitching and moaning and woe-is-me attitude.  

So I’m going to bow out a bit, get my shit together as I take time to regroup. 

Worry not, I’ll be back. I’m planning to be way more positive, mindful and optimistic for the new year ahead.  That’s the only way to be.